Most of my life is ordinary. There are “big” life events, but it is the day-to-day moments that make up my life’s rhythm.
There is comfort in ordinary time: the comfort of the known. I get up, make breakfast – oatmeal or an egg, walk 1.5 to 2 miles at the Newton YMCA, do some client work, straighten the house, read and write, take an afternoon nap, and find a light supper. Mix in a visit and a few emails and texts. Go for a sunset drive with Jon, our cameras in hand. In the rhythm of the everyday, I experience connection and meaningful work.
There is comfort in ordinary things: the comfort of the known. The porcelain tea cup used every morning, purchased at a tea shop in Deadham, England with John (Foster) and my friends, David and Michael. The beautifully framed Japanese symbol for “courage” that stands on the mantel, a gift from Wendy. The infinitely soft afternoon nap blanket made of four muslin layers that warm and breathe. The weight of my wedding rings on my hands. Noticing everyday things, I experience the love and memories anew.
But today was not ordinary: Jon and I again stepped into the unknown. Today was “chemo day.” Today we learned that the current drug combination was no longer effective. In consultation with Dr. Morgan, we chose the next “line of treatment,” a new combination of immunotherapy and chemotherapy drugs. Treatments will have a more complex timetable. I experience the unknown – uncharted territory: anxiety and unanswered questions, fear that is designed to protect me. And, I experience a sense of adventure and curiosity, wondering what will be revealed around the curve with the ‘No Passing’ zone.
A blessing for your own life rhythms: